Today would have been Steve’s 58th birthday. Missing him so much, always thinking about him, and will never stop loving him.

Three years ago today I lost my darling husband Steve. I think about him constantly, miss him so, so much, and will never, ever stop loving him x

Missing my darling husband Steve so much today, and every day. We got engaged on Christmas Day 2012. I said "Will you..." and he said "Yes". Thinking of him all the time and will never, ever stop loving him.

Two years ago today my darling husband Steve Carne died after a nightmare 3 months in intensive care suffering from acute pancreatitis. It was beyond heartbreaking watching helplessly while he went through hell from this terrible disease for which there is no cure. However due to the generosity of family and friends, we have been able to support the work of Guts UK Charity (link in bio) who are funding research into pancreatic and digestive diseases. Hopefully one day there’ll be a cure so others don’t have to suffer like he did. For 19 years Steve was my partner and best friend, and for the last 5 years he was my darling husband. I will never stop thinking about him, never stop missing him, and never stop loving him.

Two years ago today my darling husband Steve Carne died after a nightmare 3 months in intensive care suffering from acute pancreatitis. It was beyond heartbreaking watching helplessly while he went through hell from this terrible disease for which there is no cure. However due to the generosity of family and friends, we have been able to support the work of Guts UK Charity (link in bio) who are funding research into pancreatic and digestive diseases. Hopefully one day there’ll be a cure so others don’t have to suffer like he did. For 19 years Steve was my partner and best friend, and for the last 5 years he was my darling husband. I will never stop thinking about him, never stop missing him, and never stop loving him.

Today would have been our 7th Wedding Anniversary. Will never stop thinking about my darling Steve. Missing you and loving you every second of every day 😢💔

April 23rd 2021 would have been Steve's 56th Birthday. Can't believe it's now been more than a year since he died, and two years since we were standing at the top of the Eiffel Tower celebrating his 54th birthday. I'll never stop thinking about you, and missing you my darling xxx

A year ago today. To my darling Steve - I will never stop thinking about you, never stop missing you, and never stop loving you xxxx

8 years ago, on Christmas Day 2012 I asked "Will you....? " and Steve said "Yes". Always thinking about you, always missing you, always loving you. Dave xxxxx

A year ago today the nightmare began ...... Always in my thoughts, missing you so much and always loving you 💔💔😥😥

Exactly 19 years ago today Steve and I first met. We had initially made contact via a gay social networking site and exchanged emails for around 4 months. Finally, after a lot of persuading, I plucked up courage to say ‘hello’ in person (after sitting outside his apartment in my car for a hour feeling very nervous !). Little did we know it was a day that was going to change both our lives forever. I never imagined that we would fall so completely in love, travel the world, have some incredible experiences together and end up spending nearly 6 years as husband and husband. Sadly I also never imagined that our life together would be so cruelly cut short, and all our future plans would never happen. Missing you so much and thinking about you constantly, my darling Steve. All my love, always x

Today would have been our 6th Wedding Anniversary. 4 months on, and I still can’t believe my wonderful, gorgeous, amazing, loving, kind, caring and absolutely perfect husband Steve Carne is no longer here. In 19 years together we never had one real argument, he was always there for me when I needed him, we managed to finish each other’s sentences all the time, and knew what each other was thinking so often it was uncanny. Although we were apart during the week when he was working in Wales, we’d phone each other every evening to chat about our day, and the best part of my week was a Friday evening when he’d arrive home, walk through the door with that gorgeous smile, we’d hug, kiss and snuggle up together with a pizza and Friday night tv. The worst part of my week was a Sunday evening when we would have to say goodbye as he headed back to Wales....he always texted me to let me know he'd got there safely. Even though things weren't always easy, and we had our differences (he wasn’t interested in cars or current affairs and I wasn’t into theme parks and not quite as obsessed with computer games), we fitted together perfectly. During the early part of his illness when he had just been admitted to Intensive Care in Wales and the doctors had warned us he was very seriously ill, I’d been beside his bed holding his hand until the early hours of the morning .... and fallen asleep. I woke up and said to him “sorry, I don’t think I’m being much use at the moment”. Even though he was in absolute agony he looked at me with his gorgeous dark brown eyes, managed a smile and said “you might not think it, but you being here means the world to me”. I tried not to react too much at the time, but walked out of ICU and completely broke down. He meant the world to me too, and I miss him so so much. Every single day of our 19 years together we said "I love you", and those were our last words to each other as he lay critically ill a few hours before he passed away. Wherever you are Steve take care, I’m thinking about you all the time. I know you’d be worried if you knew I was upset so I’m trying to be strong......but its so hard. I’ll try to go to bed at a reasonable time (without spending hours scrolling through Facebook), eat properly and drink lots of water (like you always told me to) and do my very best to make you proud. I will always love you and miss you, and will see you again one day 💋💋💋💋💋❤️❤️❤️❤️

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I am I and you are you, whatever we were to each other that we still are. Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was.